The Kiss.  The Rose City.  2012

OVER THE THRESHOLD

Don't turn away, don't run away! Wet streets and under the overpass, our eyes meet.  Methy and pitt stained.  She had a lolly-pop, hair was pinned to each side, that of a little girl.  Trench coat, trench coat, trench coat. Brown. Brown paper bag color.  THE WEST! YIKES ITS COLD! ITS SO COLD OUT! MAN WILL IT EVER STOP! The hallway is red. Flickering lights pass by. Room after room pass, A cough, T.V., Wall paper, so dark, so very red.  A world away yet so close. So close indeed.  BUT THIS! This was straight out the books, those very old stories of the age of human souls coming back, back from the leaves and living right in front of you......YES IN DEED.  We all wanted to be in the movies, but the movies didn't want to be in us.  Do you have any pot kid?  "No terri I don't."  " I am just passing through."  Evil Kenevil road these back streets, YIKES ITS COLD, ITS JUST COLD!  Building to building, story of time, she knew the details, the smells of history come and gone.  Hours passed, Tri-X the swiss army knife of films, darkness comes fast.  "The times were different then.  OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH, WHISTLING TO THE FOUR WINDS!  Old Ford hums down spring hill road.  Dust and more cold.  " Well kid I better get back to work"  2002 remember where you were?  Big boobs through the cold window. Carhartts pass, too cold to look.  Out the door, snow falls,  "Hey Terri?".   She had a lolly-pop. "Want a lolly son?"
Twirling, like a little girl, "I know I talk with Him everyday."  Over the threshold and into Jacky K's history, Jaky O boys pen and prose.  What makes men thirst for experience?  THERE IS NOT ENOUGH TIME!!  Prose leads, people blurry and blunt, City Streets, Rose City streets, back on the concrete, no eyes, no conversation, wanting the light, the thirst for the light.  Watching cartoons, remember those great cartoons?  The Coyote and Sheep dog, " Good Morning George", Good Morning Sam!"   The cut aways,  No One Ever Said They Where Gonna Be A Junkie When They Grow Up.  Boots lead to the red neon....RESCUE.

WORTHY OF THE CUT.

It was late, 12:34 AM to be exact. Walking through the fog-blanketed streets of Portland, breathing, smoking, dwelling.  Who is a man if he has not walked through hardship? Be that self-induced or by mere chance.  Who is a man who has not suffered the pains of sin; the humility of grace?  Walking, breathing, wondering: is it HE who ultimately pursues us? Like a hungry lion?  Or the Shepherd who claims his lost - His wandering fearful flock?  Why, I wonder, does HE pursue so vigorously?  Love?  How do we as humans even understand true love?  True, grit your teeth, take a bullet, love?

Walking, late into the mist, late upon the Portland streets, breathing, smoking, dwelling.  Who is a man to be worthy as to be cut and carved out of pure marble?  Who I ask are those that greatness thrust itself upon them and they rose in integrity to live in that greatness.  Through toil, through hours and moments of agony.  Loneliness, heat, cold, great sweeping plains of nothingness. Who are these men who rose to Greatness?  So much so that years later other great men of craft cut your being out of stone!  Yet, as the Great King Solomon dots upon his journals, "Everything is Meaningless."  Meaningless when one's life is completely void of God.  Running, Running, Running, all of us are!  Running to stand still!  Oh people of this modern age!  What has us in such a rush?  A rush to fill our pockets; a rush to build capital?  HA! Capital?  What good is Capital when the little nephew throws flowers, wilted ones at that, upon your grave as men with work gloves and cigarettes lower you into the deep, into the sleep of a thousand sleeps!

Walking, breathing, smoking. It's late, yet it doesn't matter. For being alone is one of the greatest things a man can do for himself.  Photographically there are a million humans, objects and landscapes to capture.  WHY?  Why do we embark on its craft?  Well, why not?  As the sculptor cut these great men out of stone, so we embark to capture these great men and the stories of this great toil through this medium; the modern medium of film.  And we do it to ask questions.  Who are these great men?  Who are the ones who rose to shrug off mediocrity; to answer the call and push forward.  No matter the hill, no matter the mire.  No matter the slander and selfish nature of others.  No matter the scoff or the hate. For to resist the call is to suffocate one's throat with the worldly roots and ultimately imprison ourselves till ashes upon ashes.

"I Fled Him, down the nights and down the days;

I Fled Him, down the arches of the years;

I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways

Of my own mind; and in the mist of tears

I hid from Him, and under running laughter."

"Ah, Fondest, blindest, weakest,

I am He Whom thou seekest!

Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me."

Photo: Portland Art Museum, Portland OR, 2012, J.W. Zirschky

The Attack!

photo: Man on the Amtrak, Tacoma WA, 2012: J.W. Zirschky

Riding the rails, riding through cars, planes and on foot. Seizing the light at a moment's notice takes over our vision; takes the heart and runs it through! Oh how I wish all would feel this - experience the rush of a moment come and gone - a moment of agony and ecstasy, for all those publishers who write articles upon articles on gear and techno know-how; for all those people crammed into photo-supply stores looking for the new, ten thousand dollar, do-it -for-you, cook you bacon and eggs, piece of equipment!  For you, I write this:  Let the heart and eye work together and seize upon the moment!  It may not be the best piece of work your trained brain has ever done, or people may not even recognize or give a damn. But is this why you photograph?  Is this why you paint? Is this why you stay up long nights and type, scribble, and type again!  NO!  You do it because your heart and eye are connected, and they seize and then create!  Sometimes throughout all of our photographs, all our paintings and writings we have to do normal, day-to-day, humdrum, have-to's, and through this we find others who create as much as we do - and even more - and we wonder..."why"?  Why do I do this?  The market is crowded.  There is no work.  Newspapers are dying. The medium is shifting.  A fellow at a party a week or so ago asked me "Is there any work in photography anymore?  Can you really get magazine work?"  The naiveté killed me!  Yes, there is work!  But we must ATTACK IT!  And even so, if we do not find the work right away, which in most cases we do not, for our modern world has this notion that success will just somehow show up. If the work doesn't come then we continue to push ahead - we build, we pound nails, we haul your trash, we fish the sea, we pour your coffee, we cremate you when you die, we paint the house, rake the leaves, and clean the toilets!  Yet we do not stop THE ATTACK!  We capture with our creative eyes and hearts!  We create our bodies of work and we do it because this, my dear fellows, is God's gift to us (among many other blessings).  We put in the hours, the seconds, the rays of light upon the moment......because this, my dear fellows, is our calling.

A Professional Is Patient, from the War of Art by Steven Pressfield

Resistance outwits the amateur with the oldest trick in the book:  it uses his own enthusiasm against him.  Resistance gets us to plunge into a project with an overambitious and unrealistic timetable for its completion.  It knows we can't sustain that level of intensity.  We will hit the wall.  We will crash.  The Professional, on the other hand, understands delayed gratification.  He is the ant, not the grasshopper; the tortoise, not the hare. The Professional arms himself with patience, not only to give the stars time to align in his career, but to keep himself from flaming out in each individual work.  He knows that any job, whether its a novel or a kitchen remodel, takes twice as long as he thinks and costs twice as much.  He accepts that.  He recognizes it as a reality.  The Professional steels himself at the start of a project,  reminding himself it is the Iditarod, not the sixty-yard dash.  He conserves his energy.  He prepares his mind for the long haul.  He sustains himself with the knowledge that if he can just keep those huskies mushing, sooner or later the sled will pull into Nome.

Photograph:  A waiter cleans tables at the Hilt bar in NE Portland, OR.    by J.W. Zirschky

Author: Steven Pressfield

Another block, Another Chapter, Will West plays tonight.

A call to the crew: restless, wandering of the mind, "Skip won't pay the boys".  Empty pockets. Her love is like a crazy cup of cool orange juice.  Red notebook.  Plans, plans, plans  The Rose City, hot and fresh to breath.  Black, white, yellow - they walk the neighborhood - ocean to concrete. Another chapter done, a new chapter to ride.  A fresh, new aperture-clicking, clicking: one, two, three until the sun kisses the moment - the vanishing moment.  An inspiring man: "live with passion my good man!" To suck my mind out of the familiar, to look as though others would see. What do you see?  Tattoos, black hair, jack boots, blue collar, food carts, broken signs, colored skirts; kids, kids, kids. Where has the greatest generation gone?  Where are the fathers?  Who will teach us?  Another block down, another block to another bar.  Where are the workers?  We can't all be social.  Gum on the street. Hula-hoops spin.  The river flows.  Does Portland even have jobs?  Another block, another chapter.  "I'm lucky because I work hard".  Thoughts rage from other men, the city.  What lays here?  Opportunity, they say - opportunity to make a better life. "Oh, but the country is kissed by God".  Pull back. Visions of a bush pilot - slow down and bring her in softly.  The city will open up, all in due time.  Heaven is there.  Smoke from the grill.  The homeless need beers.  Another block and another chapter to walk through......for now, this night, Will West plays.

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